WE SENT SANDRA BULLOCK TO A PSYCHIC

Eavesdrop as she learns about the mysterious men in her future and discusses life, love, and her own special female intuition with Alice Hoffman

(Marie Claire, November 1998)

Dawnea Adams: (California-based clairvoyant): Sandy, when's your birthday?

Sandra: July 26th.

Dawnea: There is a tremendous amount of transition in your life right now and a change in your identity. You are going through this huge awakening, a metamorphosis, having to do with your spirituality, with your identity as a woman. The vision that came to me was like the butterfly who comes out of the cocoon, but the cocoon was a cocoon inside of a cocoon.

Sandra: That makes sense.

Dawnea: It was a real opening up of yourself and the you inside of you. In your profession, when you master that, there's no end to what you can do. But there is also going to be a shift in your personal life, because what you are demanding of your personal life is a real personal life: No games. No Sandra Bullock, the actress. You know, "I want to be Sandy the person." You've also become a stickler about the integrity you want to bring to the projects that you work on. It's got to have something that resonates with you and your consciousness-even if it's humorous. Now for the personal part of your life-let's shift over to that.

Sandra: Everyone hold your breath. (laughs) No, I just think -I don't know if it has to do with age-if you leave this Earth, have you done something that's bettered the place? What will people think of you after you leave? We all do selfish things up until a certain age, and I think that's because we want to discover and we want to take in everything. But I'm in a place right now where I don't want to just take in any more. I have to put it back out there in a way that might change opinion or clarify something for someone, or show something in a different light, like being a single mom on film. That's a great thing, because it will all of a sudden give people a new light. I'm achieving something amazing right now, which before I hadn't even really looked at.

Dawnea: Let me tell you how I see this clairvoyantly, because you'll get a kick out of this vision I'm getting. There are these spirals; Sandy is in the middle of the spiral and she's spiraling; and then there are these little spirals. It's the career, it's the family, it's the production company. And then we get to the men. And this one is spiralling 15 different ways, going, like, whoa. So the next step in your life is to create a home for yourself. A real home with a man who loves you, who is a life mate, who understands the girl you are externally, and the woman you are internally, and the child you still are as well.

Sandra: (laughs) Immature, as I continue to be.

Dawnea: Now, you have already gone out and said, "OK, for the hell of it, I'll go out." But at this point in your life, you cannot be with a man who you don't feel emotionally and spiritually connected to, because you have risen above that. The more in touch you become with yourself, like you have over the past 16 or 18 months of your life and certainly the past five or six months the less appealing that whole scene will be to you. Now there is a man in your energy field. All is not lost. There are two men-actually three men that I see.

Sandra: All right! A stable!

Dawnea: There's a dark-haired man who has very piercing eyes and a really intense energy, like Scorpionic energy. He might have a moon in his Scorpio. There is another, younger man, who is a love, a sweet, darling, dear boy. Boy, not man-boy. And there's another man who is connected to you in many ways. And this man is someone who's gone back and forth. I see him criss-crossing-he's had some really humbling experiences over the past year of his life. He's got lighter hair. He's got those eyes-those bullet looking eyes, very intense-looking eyes. He's a sensual guy, but he's a man. He's not a boy. He's got that energy.

Sandra: Do I know them?

Dawnea: I believe you know two. You know the young guy who's the dear friend but really isn't a romance, and the dark-haired man is coming into your life.

Sandra: The intense guy. OK.

Daenea: This is the year when relationships are going to be a focus for you-the idea of home, and a nest, and having passion, and fun, and love, and someone who can let you go off and do what you do. A man who can stand by your side and not be intimidated by your power or what you've achieved in your life, who has his own success happening in his life and who feels confident within himself. That's the kind of man I see coming into your life.

Sandra: But is he a good kisser? (laughs)

Dawnea: Well, he's got big lips, so I'm assuming he is.

Sandra: All right!

Dawnea: You've been around the block with this man before. And if he's not in your life right now, he's coming back into your life, Sandy. You've mastered your craft, honey. And you're going to just keep moving up the ladder. I mean, you are going to shock some people over the next two years with what you do professionally. But the bottom line is this: The Achilles' heel in your life, it's men. And all you want is to be loved.

Sandra: Is that so wrong?

Dawnea: No, honey, it's not. All you want is to be loved, but to be loved in the right way. You are not the kind of girl who plays mind games. It's just not your style. In many past lives, you've had talent, you've had wealth, you've had power. But you haven't had love. So in this incarnation . . .

Sandra: I'm gonna get it?

Dawnea: You're gonna get it.

Sandra: Yeah!

Dawnea: You have my word on that. When you meet this guy, there will be a chemical attraction to draw you to him, because you've got to have that. But then there's a great friendship. The man can talk and share his feelings with you. He's not one of these terrified of commitment types. When you come together, you know beyond a shadow of a doubt, This is it. OK, now ask me questions about him.

Sandra: Is he funny?

Dawnea: You're funnier, but you can teach him.

Sandra: Yeah? Can he cook?

Dawnea: He can scramble eggs.

Sandra: Open mind?

Dawnea: Very. What else? Is he good in bed? Yes.

Sandra: OK. Well, I didn't ask it. You said it. Can he dance? Does he have rhythm?

Dawnea: The boy has got soul.

Sandra: Oh, my. That's all I need to know. Speak any foreign languages?

Dawnea: French and Italian and some Spanish. I think he might have been raised in Europe at certain points. So he has a sense of passion about life, about art, about good wine, about lovely food, about-he's very sensual. I have this vision of you-there's a villa, I think it's in the south of France, it's one of the homes you  have, where I think you've lived a life together, where you had children, a beautiful life together. You're on a balcony looking out at the ocean and he comes up behind you, and there are no words spoken. He puts his arms around you and he holds you, you lean your head back and I see the tears in your eyes.

Sandra: I have chicken skin.

Dawnea: I think he's very creative. He could write. I don't think he's a stockbroker, or you could forget about it.

Sandra: I can not iron those shirts.

Dawnea: Well, honey, you need somebody who is on your level creatively, otherwise, you're going to get bored.

Sandra: I like him.

Dawnea: Now, a little about your work . .

Sandra: I don't want to know about work. I don't want to know of things that I can't control. I'm thinking about taking a good amount of time off January, February, March and just travelling. I want to go to Africa. I want to go to places I've never been before, sort of get dirty.

Dawnea: Take your journal with you, because the experiences that you're gonna have when you're on the road are going to be mind-blowing. What you'll be doing is taking yourself to another level creatively. So what else? Health is good. You look fabulous.

Sandra: Health is good. I feel really good.

Dawnea: Well, you have a lot to look forward to.

Sandra: A woman once asked me, what's the recipe for finding your soul mate? I was like, I never thought about that before, I don't know. “We're all looking for a soul mate,” I said. But every wonderful experience that I've shared with another human being-whether it was love or infatuation that person was mirroring exactly who I myself was at that time. And if you find your soul mate, it's because you have gotten to a place where you've figured out what your own soul is.

Dawnea: Each person brings into our life what they have to of her. Whether it's a moment or a lifetime, they've touched us and we've grown.

Sandra: I remember a great story that my mother told me of this woman who had a gift for realizing what was medically ailing people. This woman had been in a horrible car accident and her accident caused a traffic jam. And she remembers her body lifting out of the car, floating over every car. She could hear people bitching and complaining and being angry. Out of one car came this unbelievable beam of light and she said her whole body just migrated toward it. In that car she saw another woman, a very sweet woman, praying for her. All of a sudden, she found herself shoved back into the car. When she woke up-she'd been in a coma for a while-she remembered when she was floating. She thought, I don't know if I'm dreaming, but I'm going to remember the license plate, and if this is real, I'm going to go and thank that lady. Months later, she tracked down the license plate, took flowers, went to the woman's house and explained the dream. She asked, "Was that you?" And the woman said, "Tell me what the date was." She told her, and the woman said, "That was me. I was praying for you in the car." Isn't that amazing? It's like when you're nice to somebody who's having a bad day, their day gets better.

Alice Hoffman: (author of Practical Magic, the best-seller on which Sandra's latest movie is based): What a great story.

Sandra: And that's what's so great about your book, Alice-it's practical magic. It's things that happen every single day, that we either pass by or we don't know how to explain.

AIice: You know, the character you play in the film version is a character who, as a child, decided she wasn't going to fall in love. I think that love is magic. It's irresistible-whether you want it or not.

Sandra: It's the one thing we can't control. Why is it this human being makes every pore in my body unable to control itself, and think things, and feel challenged-it's like you're swimming in your own head.

Alice: Why that person?

Sandra: It's the same thing when your heart's broken or you're jealous. You can't control yourself. You can't stop. You just think, Why am I doing this stuff? And it's the one thing we can't control within ourselves emotionally.

AIice: Well, you know what I feel my special talent is? This is a terrible talent to have: I feel I can tell right away if a man is cheating on a woman. I've been out with friends and their husbands and boyfriends-I hate thinking that I have this, whether I have it or not-and I'm usually right. I just wish I didn't have this.

Sandra: That's a horrible thing to know.

AIice: And I never say anything, because of course I think, Oh, I'm crazy; I must be imagining this.

Sandra: I know the feeling.

AIice: But I think probably it's just the practical little things that reveal when someone is unfaithful. The way a man looks around the room, what he's wearing that day . . . just picking up on those things. Have you ever had any kind of otherworldly premonition?

Sandra: One thing that I have-and friends make fun of me all the time-is a sense of doom. Almost every time something really harsh and horrible has happened, I've known a little bit before. And it's always that same feeling in my gut. It's like I'm in big trouble. You know, when you're a kid, that feeling in your stomach, it takes over. And I feel it all the way up into my throat, and I think, Something's gonna happen, and I can just feel it, it's doom. It's something bad every single time.

AIice: Are these things outside in the world or in your own life?

Sandra: My own life, family, friends. Not little things, like a friend locking herself out of her house, but something tragic or heartbreaking.

Alice: I've had that also. I had a dream once that my grandmother was dressed in a blue silk dress with pearls and she was falling. I got a call the next day-my grandmother had been at a big party, a wedding, and she'd fallen. She was really sick. She had cancer. It was such a visceral dream, so shocking to me. If you want to call it magic, OK, but I think it's more that people really are connected and there's this energy between them that's unexplainable.

Sandra: There's a friend of mine-we are so unbelievably connected, it's frightening. It's one of those things where I'll be singing a song 3000 miles away and my friend will say, "That's exactly the song I was playing." Or I'll be someplace where I wasn't supposed to be that I knew I would get in trouble for, and that person will show up at that place. It's almost like it's my conscience and my devil all in one. It's almost like I can read minds at this point. Instinct or intuition or a sixth sense-that's like our gift. Sometimes it's so obvious, but you don't want to say anything, because everyone is going to make fun of you. But you know what? I have the best time.

Alice: What a tremendous gift, to be able to really have fun.

Sandra: I don't know where that came from. Every day is amazing, even when it's awful. Because everything is for a reason. Because I know that this horrible thing that's happening today is going to bring me something so amazing.

AIice: It's the real magic of finding miracles in everyday life.

Sandra: You can change the world. One single person can change the world.

AIice: Your attitude is so great.

Sandra: I'm not always perky. I can be a bitch and I can be hard. But as I said, I don't want to be 80 years old going, What did I leave behind that made the world a better place? Did I clean it up? Did I really change perceptions?

AIice: I think that as you grow in your work you feel more comfortable.

Sandra: You just get fearless. But I think that also comes with age. Things like how you dressed and how you looked were so important, and now I don't care. I just don't care.

Alice: I don't care either. Actually, I went with one of my sons to get ice cream and I was wearing underwear-a pair of boxers instead of shorts. My son was so embarrassed, and I'm like, I don't care. It doesn't really matter.

Sandra: Kids don't understand that. I remember how I couldn't understand when my mother didn't care.

AIice: How was it for you to play a single mother in your film?

Sandra: I've done it twice now. I could have been a mom. I could have had kids when I was 17. I identify better with kids than I do with adults, 'cause I always feel like I'm in a constant state of "kid." You need to deal with me like you deal with a 10-year-old. Just tell me the truth. That's all I need. Tell me Yes I can have that, or No I can't have it. I love kids. They're little geniuses. They've got it figured out.